Thursday, October 27, 2011

happy music day

all monday, i spent the day sending leann happy songs. now, here's some of them for you to enjoy. after all, it's almost friday, so that's something to be happy about in itself!

Oh! happy day!-- one of my favorite worship songs.

thank you for being a friend-- not just for golden girls.

and a little monty python, just for laughs.

and this one's called "the happy song", how could it not be included?

finally, one for my husband:
"when we're having endoscopies and gumming our jell-o, we'll survive"

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

comparing chocolate to quinoa

i've got a real problem comparing myself with others. whether it's something that i should worry about inside my heart, or something as frivilous as someone's nail polish color, i'm constantly looking at ways to compare myself to "them". most of the time, it's not even a fair apples-to-apples comparison, but more of a chocolate-to-quinoa comparison. examples follow.

"she sure looks popular. i don't even wear makeup most of the time."
"they seem to have their lives together. i wish i'd finished pharmacy school."
"she's such a good baker. i don't clean my floors often enough."

see? those aren't even related. but they're real thoughts i've had. thing is, even if they're accurate comparisons, it's not fair. i'm who i am. i was designed by god to have my own strengths and weaknesses. and that's beautiful! so, in light of this, i've decided to make a list of things that are good qualities of mine. it's a short one, but that's good for now.

i am a devoted wife to my husband.
i strive to know god more every day.
i have a spiritual gift of hospitality.
i surround myself with people who are good for me.
i'm learning more about myself every day.

Monday, October 24, 2011

weekend update

what a phenomenal weekend. i spent friday night into saturday camping with some amazing people. it felt so good to surround myself with caring, godly people. and to open up the way we all did was nothing short of the work of the spirit. i didn't bring my camera with me, but here are a few photos i stole from a friend of mine.

the boys making breakfast-- potatoes, eggs, and grilled bacon

right on the edge of a lake

i slept in a tent. no joke.

after we got home saturday, a shower was in order-- then a trip to whole foods and a family dinner.
sunday was just sunday. and it was lovely. a day of rest-- a true sabbath, with a sprinkling of homework added in there.

Friday, October 21, 2011

grab a coffee and study with me

Proverbs 31:16-17

P31:16: "She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard."
P31:17: "She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks."

if i can make you one promise, it's that today won't be as intense as last week. partially because i don't have my study bible with me so i can't give you that commentary.

this week actually encourages me. because it's about planning and doing, and i rock at planning and doing. of course, it also brings to the surface some of my sins-- which are control and priority. Let's start with the good stuff, yes?

the P31 woman plans. she is cautious and resourceful. she makes good use of the things she has. she works hard and has a lot to show for it. these are all ways that she provides for her family, although this is one of the first verses we've seen where family or spouse are not mentioned. also, this may be one of the first time we see her wants being pursued instead of just family needs. a vineyard is grown for one thing-- to make wine. wine's definitely not a necessity, it's something extra that would be nice to give her family. in making this vineyard, she is out there doing the work. she does not buy the land and have her servants work it, or even worse, buy it and let it go to waste. she works it herself so that she can see to light the desires she sees in the land.

now the bad stuff.
i do this. i work hard for what i get. and then i'm proud of it. i work the land because in that way, i keep a control over it that i won't have if my husband works the land. also, these verses don't say that the man works for these items and the woman reaps the benefits-- in the same way, i work hard (two jobs and school) for my things. well, of course, for our things. husband also works hard, so we have a fairly comfortable life. but i often find my worth in the things i control. in the ability to work long days and stay afloat. to work hard in three different ways and live to tell about it. i am very good at controlling my life.

what happens when i lose control?
god shows he's got it.
god shows that not only do i not NEED to have control, but that i shouldn't WANT to have control. because having control of a situation means you're to blame when something goes wrong. but if god's in control and something goes differently than you expect it? that's great! it means you can relax and pray about what's coming next. it means that if i'm not controlling my external situations, i have more time to control my heart and soul, and ask god to permeate them both.

here's to losing control.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

thankful thursday

i haven't been posting my updates here, but if you look over there on my sidebar --> you can find my 1000 favorites list. i don't update it with the frequency that leann does, but i should! i do work on it. you can click over there to see the whole list, but here's what i've come up with this morning:

29. i'm a daughter of a god who loves
30. cooler weather and car seat heaters
31. making soup in the crock pot
32. enjoying MLB games with husband- it counts as quality time!
33. having a boss who supports me
34. being physically healthy
35. planning a honeymoon!
36. feeling loved
37. productive evenings, even if it means leaving work at 8pm
38. fall in dallas means less humidity
39. so many family visits coming up soon
40. finding new ways to pray to god

Monday, October 17, 2011

monday, monday, monday

it sure is a monday, isn't it?

i woke up late (of course)
then i left my breakfast AND lunch, nicely packed in my lunch pail, on the kitchen table (of course)

but things started to look up when husband called me, just to have me share my amazing christopher walken impersonation with him. via speakerphone. with someone listening.

it's okay though. it's all expected for a monday.
here's to tuesday!

Friday, October 14, 2011

grab a coffee and study with me

it's true. leann and i are back with the latest installment. sorry for the few weeks off, hope you're still hanging in here. after you read mine, go check out her site for her take on these verses.

Proverbs 31:14-15

P31:14: "She is like the ships of the merchants; she brings her food from afar"
P31:15: "She rises while it is still night and provides food for her household and portions for her maidens"

believe it or not, i've got a lot to say today. but first, i'll give you the synopsis from the study bible:

trading ships is a poetic analogy; she does not literally sail the seas. she goes out of her way to secure fine food for her family // by providing for her household and her maidens before the day begins, the "excellent wife" multiplies the effectiveness of her work, because her planning enables everyone else in her household to be productive throughout the day. she does not lie in bed and wait for servants to attend to her.

now, for once, the explanation given shows that this is an analogy/exaggeration. finally.
also, i had a breakdown the night before i wrote up this study. so there. you know why?
because i go out of my way to secure fine food for my family.
because i provide for my house before the day begins.

being the P31 woman WILL DRIVE YOU CRAZY.

this is personal, people. i do not intentionally try to be a P31 woman. i don't. i'm good at housekeeping and doing a lot at once and i'm a good host. so automatically, i figure i should go a step more and become a P31 woman. but you know what happens when most women (i'm fairly sure it's 99.6% of us) try this? we go insane. because we worry about what we can control. and if we can't control it at all, we break down. or if we control too much, we break down. and if we don't control enough, we break down.

being a P31 woman is unattainable. because of the way it's been listed (at least thus far in the passage)-- she does all of this willingly. today? she gets up early and gets her house ready. she does the job of her servants. she secures fine food for her family.
me? i stay up late because i'm grading exams. so i sleep in a little because i'm exhausted from living. sure, i secure fine food, if that means shopping sales. and spending 3 hours shopping at 4 different stores because that's where the deals are. but is that worth it? is it worth it to do all of this extra stuff, if the things that matter are left aside?

so, what matters?
spending all that time grocery shopping, or relaxing on a saturday with husband?
staying up late grading papers, or getting my rest so i can enjoy a coffee in the morning with my husband?
fighting over the dirty kitchen, or being thankful we have food and a roof?

thing is, i'm not sure. i know what the answer should be, but i sure don't act like it.

Monday, October 3, 2011

weekend update {work trip edition}

this weekend started out normal enough- with some good music

and some good food while doing homework. because i do homework every weekend, remember?

when i finished my homework, i went to san diego. yep. i'm here all week. it's beautiful and just cool enough and so nice.

but truth is, i miss husband already.